I sit here at the computer wondering what to write for my Monday morning blog post. There are a few ideas tossing around in my head and on my list, but it’s 10:00 at night right now, and my brain doesn’t think well at 10:00 at night.
Or maybe it’s just that it thinks in odd ways.
Which does, in fact, bring me to a thought for the blog post.
I like to use the excuse of being tired, sick, or inhibited in some other way to keep me from truly doing what I know I am supposed to do. In all honesty, making sure I have a blog post up on Monday is not high on the “have to do” list. But, at the same time, when I neglect writing for any stretch of time, I feel that I am neglecting a portion of how I am supposed to abide in Christ. I process through these fingers tapping on the computer keyboard, or through a pen scratching across the pages of a journal. So, often when I’m not writing, I’m also not processing spiritual things.
And yet, when I’m tired, or when I have a full slate, or when something else seems to crowd out my writing time, I readily and easily give in to the excuse. Even for something I enjoy – and even crave – as much as writing.
How much more do I use excuses for the acts of obedience I don’t enjoy quite so much?
When I am tired, sick, busy, overwhelmed, or just making priority choices that exclude certain activities, I find that things like writing take on a different flavor. Often times I think that flavor is wrong. I think that the results are bad. And the perfectionist in me would rather not do something at all than do it poorly or in the wrong manner. So, better to not do it at all.
Or is it?
As I look back on my life, I can see so many times when God has taken my obedience in times of exhaustion, sickness, or being overwhelmed and has turned that obedience into beautiful things. His Word says that in my weakness He is strong. His work in me is still good, no matter my limitations.
So tonight, I write. You will read this in the morning, and it may or may not have any impact on you. It may seem strange or even a little incoherent, as it is now 10:10 and my brain turned into a pumpkin sometime around 9:30. But, this post is an act of obedience for me. And no matter how tired I may be, I must choose obedience.
Remember that the limitations you see rising before you are no surprise to God. He knew them before He formed you. They may seem like a hindrance to your obedience, but they are not. So, no matter what the limitations may be, persevere! And trust Him with the results.