Last night Steven and I went to Wal-Mart. Just the two of us. That doesn’t happen all too often, and he was exceedingly thrilled with the plan. The boy definitely likes his one-on-one quality time with Mommy or Daddy.
On the way home, it was obvious that Steven’s mommy/son time stirred his mind a little more than usual. He started talking about the future and the fact that when he is my age, he won’t be living with Mommy and Daddy anymore. I honestly don’t know where his thoughts came from or why he was following that track, but I do know that he wasn’t too happy with the concept.
“I’ll still love you,” he said in a very small but emphatic voice. I could tell that thoughts were running through is head that he just wasn’t ready to think. Whatever started him on that train of thought led him to a place he just wasn’t ready to go. I reassured him and told him that it was okay for him to not be ready to be away from Mommy and Daddy yet. I told him that when the time came, he would be ready. He wasn’t ready yet because it wasn’t the right time.
I think about my future a lot, too. I think about the things I am not ready to face. The things I just don’t want to think about doing yet. The wonderful part about it all, though, is that I can be reassured that when the time comes, I’ll be ready too. It doesn’t automatically mean it will be easy, but I will be ready because God’s wisdom, timing, and perfect will never fail.
I love how Steven knew that he could safely share his thoughts with me, even though they were scary to him. I love how he reached out to me for reassurance. And, I love how he wanted to reassure me that no matter what, he would still love me.
We can safely go to our Father with all of our overwhelming thoughts and fears. He is our safety. He is our reassurance. He is the one who can tell us it will all be fine as long as we trust Him and walk in obedience to His voice.
May we walk into our future with great assurance, knowing that we will be ready when the time comes, we will never be separated from the God we love and who loves us, and that everything is held within His perfect timing and will.