Do you ever have days when you just can’t get your brain together? Not really sick, but not really healthy either. No excuse to fully stop, but not much energy to move with much enthusiasm either. That’s where I am today. I am spacey. I can’t seem to think or speak clearly at all. In fact, even after proofing and revising this post before scheduling it for your perusal tomorrow morning, I’m not fully convinced it will be coherent. But, it’s worth a try!
So, what can come from a fuzzy brain? What good can result from slow reaction times and a body that wants nothing more than to curl back up in bed?
You see, today I can’t rely on me at all. I can’t trust myself to teach my children well. I can’t even stay awake while grading their work or running through flashcards with them! I can’t trust myself to make reliable decisions. I can’t trust myself to react well were an emergency to present itself. All I can do is walk through the day in a fog. And trust.
Days like today are perfect for reminding me of my need to rely on Almighty God. He’s never spacey. He never loses focus or is weakened in any way. He never is slow to react or respond. He never misses anything or takes longer than necessary to accomplish something. He is perfectly, completely, and consistently reliable.
He’s reliable enough for the big things – protecting my family and walking us through the day in every shape form or fashion.
He’s reliable enough for the little things, too. Like lunch!
Yesterday, Doug began to crave a bowl of stew. Yesterday morning when he went to pick up milk, he also grabbed what he needed for a crock pot full of stew. The meat cooked throughout the day yesterday, and then this morning he added the veggies. I didn’t have to do a thing for lunch. Which means I didn’t burn it – or burn down the kitchen! Maybe I have no proof that the stew craving came from a holy nudge, but God’s nature of reliability and provision make me believe that He really was the source of that nudge, knowing I’d need lunch help today.
Some days I just know I have it all together. I’ve got energy. I’ve got strength. I’ve got motivation. Let’s do this! But the truth is that I don’t have all I need on my own, even on those days. I still need my heavenly Father. I still cannot succeed without Him no matter how energized I feel to tackle the day.
So, as much as I hope to be back to normal by the time you read this post, I will admit that I am thankful for spacey days. I am thankful for days when I am reminded that all I can really do is rely on Him. Days when I am reminded that He is the true source of any strength I ever have. May I live every day relying on that Source.