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Inferior

I am surrounded by amazing people. Truly amazing. So many passions, talents, and strengths are represented by the friends God has brought into my life. And I am so grateful for their impact on me.

But, sometimes I’m also intimidated. I feel that a bit right now as I get ready to start a new school year with my children. I don’t homeschool in the same way that a lot of my friends do. For the most part, I recognize that my strengths and weaknesses are different than theirs, and I’m okay with it. I know that I have to prayerfully do what I feel is best for my family, whether it looks like what someone else does or not.

There are times, though, when I feel inferior. I feel like there is a comparison between myself and them, and the difference between us means I am lesser.

And it’s not just homeschooling. It’s many other areas of life as well.

  • If that person saw my home and how I decorate and keep house, she’d think so much less of me.

  • His blog is so different from mine. Mine must not be as good.

  • Her seams are always so straight and perfect when she sews. Compared to her creations, mine look awful!

  • Their cooking is always so creative and everyone oohs and aahs over it. I don’t think I should even take anything because mine is never that delicious and pretty.

  • She is so much more giving than I am.

  • He is so much more thoughtful than I am.

  • She’s a better friend.

  • He’s more observant.

  • She knows how to be a pastor’s wife.

  • He can make people feel so comfortable.

  • They handle their children so much better than I do.

And the list goes on and on and on…I can’t keep up. I can’t compare. I can’t be like them. So, I must be inferior.

But it gets worse. When I feel inferior in certain areas, I try to compensate by making myself number one in others. In the process, I set other people up for feeling inferior. And like the list, the cycle goes on and on and on…

Reality is that I am who God made me to be. I am imperfect in this sin-conquered world, but a day is coming when I will be made perfect in Him. In the meantime, I am working toward that goal. Part of working toward perfection, though, is putting aside the attitude of inferiority. Not because I am better at those things than I think I am. (The truth just might be the opposite!) But because in the scheme of ultimate perfection in Christ, those things are little more than outward expressions of what is supposed to be going on inside.

I won’t homeschool like someone else does. But, do I homeschool to the glory of God? Do I write so that my blog will be better than someone else’s, or do I write because I have a burning passion to do so as an expression of my love for my Savior? I might not sew, cook, decorate, or clean house like someone else, but do I honor God with my own efforts? In all of my interactions with others, am I seeking to be noticed or to direct their attention to Christ?

If my goal is to rise to the top in the comparison game, I will always instead fall to the bottom of the hill. But, if my goal is to point others to Christ and bring glory to God in all that I do, then I can’t help but succeed! My seams may be crooked, but my ultimate purpose will be accomplished in perfection!

If you feel inferior in what you are doing today, then I encourage you to step back and re-evaluate. Contemplate how to do what you’re doing to honor God instead of comparing yourself to anyone else. If you are giving glory to Him, then you are a perfect success.

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I am a homeschooling preacher's wife and content editor for the Well Planned Gal. But, I also love to write just for the fun of it. I also process best through writing, and my thoughts tend to flow from things I learn through the Bible, interacting with my family, and moving through life in general. Thanks for joining me in my not quite ordinary journey.

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