She dashed into the house as if being outside was pure torture, wailing all the way. She found her way to Olivia’s room where she knew she would find some sympathy and comfort. Before too many minutes had passed, however, she was restless and on the move again.
January’s weather had taken a spring-like turn, so we opened some windows to try to air out the winter staleness before another bout of cold weather arrived. Drawn like a magnet, the cat went straight to the open living room window, jumped up on the sill, and stared outside. She took in the excitement outdoors: birds searching for food in the yard, leaves rustling and tossing about in the breeze, and Jack lumbering past in his leisurely way. She pressed her nose against the screen and meowed as if every moment indoors was pure torture. Yet here she was, stuck indoors.
Wandering, wailing, and pacing, she continued her restless behavior until she finally could not stand it another moment. The pet door slammed behind her as she finally found freedom from the indoor prison.
Mina the Monster Cat is rarely happy. She comes closest when she can be curled up near Olivia, her favorite person in the house. Even then, though, she is restless. When she is outside, she wants in. When she is inside, she wants…something. Sometimes it is obvious she wants to go back outside, but refuses to use the pet door. Other times it seems that nothing can please her.
As I watched her in the window that beautiful day, I wanted to be exasperated with her. She had been rather annoying about the whole ordeal, after all. Yet something inside my heart reminded me that I can be just the same. I, too, can walk about wailing over what I do not have right now. I know how to get it. In fact, I know it is better for me. I just refuse to do what it takes to get where I want to be. Instead of doing, I complain. Instead of staying the course, I walk around restlessly.
I should seek God. Instead, I seek things of this world while enviously watching those who seek the Lord.
I should live in diligence and discipline, knowing how wonderfully everything runs when I do. Instead, I let laziness take over and live miserably.
I should lift my heart in thankfulness, knowing that it always restores my focus. Instead, I wallow in negative thoughts and distractions.
I should delight in knowing that where God has placed me is where I can be most involved in His plan. Instead, I restlessly desire to be elsewhere.
I must admit, it irks me to think that I could learn anything from Mina, considering the strong dislike I have for that cat. God works like that, though, pointing out our flaws as we look into the mirror of the things – or even people – we dislike the most. May I learn the lesson with grace, no matter the source.